I've been archiving emails lately...I had a backlog of over 1000 messages (*sheesh*) dating back nearly a year.
I came across a message from Katinka who's blog and work on Fiercewomen resonate with much of what I'm trying to communicate too. So I'm adding her to my sidebar - very overdue, but I'll be glad to catch up with her work!
I'm reminded too of something Ernesto mused about in his blog awhile back, about why folks blog...and how his wonderings triggered a memory of mine of a series of emails I exchanged with a writer/editor who was warning me to be careful what I posted on my blog.
Voice and Witness and Censorship are all things I think about when I blog...as a writer, I come to the screen with a certain deliberateness...I need to say something...this blog (Binding...) was to be something more 'professional,' a personal column of sorts, with a small readership (likely one or two), but with view toward communicating with a larger audience should they come wandering by. I write very little of my personal stuff...I have another blog else-net for that...at the same time, this blog has turned out to be less tailored than the blog-zine's out there are very slick and well-thought out.
The thing I'm realizing recently, though, especially in revisiting Katinka's and Grace's blogs, is that there are times when I just need to bear witness to my own experience.
Here I have to put a nod in to Barbara Jane's musings on the Literature of W(h)it(e)ness...Having viewed myself as white for a great many years despite my skin color, there's an odd juxtaposition for myself in the idea of burying white/dominant culture within the act of revealing/celebrating that which has been oppressed/abused/hidden.
So, in a sense, I skate here to my own music...I cannot control what an editor who wanders here might think of me and my work, and thus I cannot allow my space to be yet again, a place of self-censorship. At the same time, by only revealing a certain set of experiences here, I'm creating that 'one inch square' detail of my life as proposed by Anne Lamott. But that square is of my own choosing, and thus my choice, which is, to my thoughts, what Voice is all about.